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Shopping and Crying

Last night something happened to me.  I had a major melt down panic attack driven by the disappointment of being unrealistic of what would fit on my body at the mall.  My poor dear friend Jenna thought I was mad at her because she could tell I was being quiet and pensive as I darted towards the exit of the mall after only going into three stores.  I was walking very quickly in front of her, hoping she could not tell how upset with myself I was.  I even practiced the breathing I recently learned in a yoga class to keep the tears from coming. It. Was. Awful.  Or, at least it felt that way. I was beyond relieved to jump into my car, since I could barely control myself anymore at this point.  I grasped the wheel and burst into tears, while again, poor Jenna sat there patiently telling me it was okay. God bless her.  If I was her I probably would have been like "yeah, I'm gonna walk home", but she very calmly and patiently sat there while I sobbed uncon...